DAD PASSED 5 YEARS AGO
A decent enough night, it is another wet morning with the temp being 16 degrees. I had to turn the heater on for a bit.
By midday it was 20 degrees.
The spat between Jess, Sam & Tim has gotten worse that is till Tasha got involved giving Jess & Sam a lecture then Tim about respect, acceptance and not acting like children. She also had a go at Tim about his refusal to see someone about his depression and his refusal to try medication for it.
It has felt like a long sad day.
A new day, the start of the last week of school holidays. A cold start to the day with a temp of 14 degrees. I am feeling drained this morning, shaking and sweating and feeling sad.
Summer is here today.
Sandy came over to us her new car, it is a white 2013 Holden Captiva, runs on diesel.
Tim & Summer went to Kmart so Tim could buy a couple of heaters. He also stopped and bought Hungry Jacks for lunch I just had a small chips.
This afternoon Tim told me he will endeavour to call Sam she or her, but it doesn’t change his believes or opinions that is fine now one expected it to.
I have no idea why he changed his mind because yesterday he was adamant he would not do so.
I could tell when he told Jess that she was happy.
I had a better night last night it is only 13 degrees this morning. Also, this morning I found a bunch of my medication laying lose on my desk, Tim obviously spilt them which is annoying but what can you do.
Summer is here today, and she has been a big help dividing fruit, unpacking groceries as well as other stuff.
Tim had a job interview, he said it went well. However, they want to wait till after he has seen his hand specialist again about removing a plate in his wrist, before offering him a job.
The temperature got to 25 degrees around midday.
Had a rough start to last night, I was tossing and turning and moving so much I felt seasick. Tim said it took my 5 hours to settle.
Once I settled, I slept well.
This morning’s temp at 5am was 13 degrees.
Tim has gone to a doctor’s appointment then he is going to cash in some bottles.
By midday it was 26 degrees.
ANZAC DAY
Had a much better night settled quickly and slept pretty much through the night.
The temp at 5am was 13 degrees but doesn’t feel that cold. It got to a top of 23 degrees by 11am.
I washed the kitchen and bathroom floors using the steam mop then Tim went over it using a normal mop and plain water. Tim also cleaned the exhaust fan in the bathroom.
Had a good night’s sleep, woke with the alarm, discovered Tim had done a load of washing and tossed it in the dryer, it is folded and waiting for me to put it away.
It is 12 degrees at 5am.
Tried on the new grey pants I bought. They are a size too big, but I can’t return them as they were on the clearance rank. I also will need them hemmed but they felt good on, I was going to wear them to the doctors but changed my mind as a piece of thread got caught in my toes.
By midday the temp was 21 degrees.
Had a doctor’s appointment all went well just needed forms filled in, also had a flu shot.
I feel terrible this afternoon like I have the flu, damn flu shot.
Had another good night, did take me a while to settle fully but once I did, I slept through the night. It is 11 degrees at 5am. By midday it was 21degrees.
I haven’t felt well all day just like I have the damn flu, but I don’t have to do anything but rest.
I did manage to answer 4 letters which is something and blog of course.
joannerambling 
❤️
Dearest Jo-Anne,
Feeling for Tim as he is struggling for so long since he got hit by that car.
It is tough to live through a period you have never asked for…
Like I’m struggling with my balance, with walking steady, with damaged nerves in my legs especially. Guess it will never return to ‘normal’ or as it was before.
And because of the accident, Pieter as a caretaker went in overdrive and now he’s given his all… his life sure got shortened by it. So sad to watch and never being able to live our dream of biking together and relax…
Big hugs,
Mariette
I have accepted this is my new normal , Tim is struggling because he wants to like he was before the accident but I feel that’s not going to happen.
How is Pieter doing?
Tim is like me—you never will get back to the condition you were in before that nasty accident… Sad truth but a fact!
Pieter is slowly entering eternity. His digestive system is shutting down and he eats less than a baby. Spoon fed by me as he is losing the power and grip to hold things himself. He is fighting with all he has left for making it to his 95th Birthday and that is in 6.5 hours!
Hope he will let go after that as it is so hard to see someone struggle and he got so beat up by twice collapsing on the floor.
I’m losing weight of course, only 43.9 kg this morning but that is due to lack of sleep and rest. But mentally I’m strong and I will bounce back later with enough rest and with the help of sweet friends.
The hospice care people looked good and caring but they let us down big time. Pieter has been assessed for twice weekly support… Can’t believe that! Yesterday’s nurse changed it to trice and I demanded every day. Oh, someone else has to come tomorrow to assess that. It is 17:36 and nobody has come yet…
They think when a man talks like Pieter he is okay. They are dealing with an extremely intelligent person who has an iron will and who never ever complained. I know him thoroughly and know better!
We can only pray and hope that he soon will get admitted into heaven as this is so hard to watch.
Big hugs and you’re a champion for accepting your life as the new normal! Know that I greatly admire you for doing so. Keep writing as it helps you to share even though very few will actually read it and then they don’t understand it. But rest assured—they too will once face hardships!
Mariette
Dear Mariette
I understand what you mean about how hard it is to watch Pieter struggle, I hope he has made it to his 95th birthday, then he can stop the struggle and join God in heaven.
I write my blog posts for me, it gives me something to do and educate me and others, I don’t worry about how many people read them, and I know more read then comment.