I have a brain and Denni is 4


I have a brain, yes it is there, well that is what the doctor told me today when I saw him, he did say I have some kinda cyst he did give it a name but for the love of me I can’t remember what he said. I have to go back next week so I will ask him to print out the report from the radiologist so I can tell Tim and anyone else who cares.

I had to have another Xray done today of my left shoulder as I have had a lot of pain in it the last week or so I said I thought I must had slept wrong but he said to have an Xray anyway to make sure I haven’t done anything bad to it. So when I go back and get the results I will ask him for a print out of the results of the scan and the Xray.

Blain is home he went to school yesterday and was back here last night, both yesterday and this afternoon he walked home from school it is much better for me with him walking home from school. I like the fact that I can be there when Leo gets out, what I don’t like is that Leo always wants to come back here after school and most days Blain doesn’t want him around and will go off to his mates and leave Leo here.

Natasha has had a fair bit of work this week, today she was suppose to be off but they rang this morning and wanted her to go do a job this is ok but also annoying when she had already made other plans for the day and had to change her plans. She loves the day work but it is annoying when she has to change her plans last minute as she has to work.

In other news 4 years ago today at Denni Jean was born at 9.46pm she was 6lb 5oz funny how here in Australia it has been metric for so long but when we talk about a baby’s birth it is still pounds and ounces. Denni is the youngest daughter of my sister Sandra brother in-law Ed she has an older sister Temika 6 and older brother Zac 18, her best friend is Landon 4 who is also her cousin she calls him “My Landon”, she is the most adorable little girl.



Tired and Sick so Nothing Much Today

Good morning all it is another cool day here in Newie, I am not feeling well this morning started yesterday afternoon/evening just feeling tight in the chest and back and have a headache but I have headaches pretty much every day lately and for the last week or so, I have had pain in my left shoulder and neck area, I have to rub stuff into it for the pain at night in order to sleep.

Yesterday Jessica rang me to ask if I could take jump leads over so someone could jump start her car she left the interior light on over night and had a flat battery. She also wanted me to take Leo to bowling after school which I did because I do these things when I cannot get out of them, he does like bowling.

Blain is still at his fathers well he was yesterday, not sure about today as I haven’t been told where he is at his dad’s or at school, he has tonsillitis and has not been well he is on antibiotics for it, from what Natasha said his father was making out it was somehow her fault that Blain got sick, really, I don’t think so these things happen.

Just had a property inspection to check the condition of the property, not a worry for me nothing wrong here, the guy checked the smoke detectors and looked in each room and left, the whole thing took less then 20 minutes.

When I went out this morning to take Leo to school, I left the letter about the inspection taped to the glass door saying that I had to take a child to school and would be back soon, thankfully he didn’t turn up while I was out.

What gets me is that I am home I have the front sliding door open and still the guy went to the other door, makes one wonder do they not look, our wooden front door is out of use as the screen door is locked and we can’t find the key but I am going to see if I can get Tim to change the lock on the screen door so we can start using the door again.

It isn’t even 11am and I am so tired, I feel like I have been up for hours ok have been up for hours but still feeling this tired isn’t the norm, some would say go have a nap but I don’t want to do that.

Sorry I don’t have much news today, I am just too tired and not with it enough to write about anything interesting.

The Last Post About Me, At Least For A While


As all know that I live in a suburb of Lake Macquarie in the state of New South Wales, which is on the east coast of Australia.

I was born at Western Suburbs Maternity hospital, as mentioned in the last post about me that we lived with my grandparents for a while before we moved to a Dept of housing place in Blacksmiths about 20 minutes from my grandparents mum and dad didn’t really like living that far away from my grandparents and when I was

Education: Year 10 of high school, I left in 1979, in 1980 I did a secretarial course at Tafe but that was only because my best friend at the time thought about doing it and I went along with her and I got into the course and she didn’t.

Siblings: Well I have 3 sisters and 1 brother all younger then me and as everyone should know we are all pretty close and see each other at least once a week

Hobbies: Reading, I love to read and I have a book in the car and I listen to an audio book while driving. I also love blogging as you all will know I like to read blog posts most days of the week usually around 30-40 blog posts a day but I do limit myself to only a couple of hours of blogging in the morning.

What I wanted to be when I grew up: A mother, yes that is what I wanted to do, I never had a job that I wanted to do all I knew was that I wanted to get married and have children and spend my time raising my children. This I achieved

Favourite Colour: Don’t have one favourite colour, I like shades of purple and I like shades of pink and some shades of yellow so more then one colour.

31 Today, Happy Birthday Precious


On this day 31 years ago, at 3.50am my beautiful, precious daughter Kathy-Lee was born weighing 5lb 13oz it was a Tuesday and after she was born all I wanted to do was sleep so her dad held her for a bloody long time and she spent the whole time looking at him into his eyes, this formed a strong bond between the two.

Kathy has always preferred her dad over me, there has been many times in her life that I felt she didn’t need me or want me around. Kathy and I have clashed a lot over the years she stills says I kicked her out of home when she was 18, for the record I DID NOT. However, when she was 18 she started thinking about moving out of home and thus started applying for rental places one of which was her first flat in Charlestown.


She came with me to the property inspection she said she liked it and so I filled in the application form and handed it in for her and when she got it I spent the whole first day laying carpet in the kitchen/ lounge-room area, it wasn’t new carpet it was an of cut bit I found in a bin at the back of a carpet store they did and at times still do toss out off cuts.

I also stayed there while her dad moved furniture in for her along with my parents and my sister Sue, thinking about it now was Tim there I think he was but not sure, not important I guess. I left when she got home from work, her first car was one that I had which I gave to her. I do not remember why she moved from that flat other then she wanted a change, but not important.

I remember when she was in 1st class at school I used to walk her to and from school most days and let her dad take the car to work, well this one day I pick her up and we get out the front of the school and she didn’t want to walk home and threw a tantrum, I knelt and told her calmly we had to walk as I did not have a car she spat in my face, so what did I do I slapped her face. I then spent the rest of the day and next few days worrying that one of the other parents would report me to Docs ( Department of Children Services) for slapping her face, no one did and she never spat in my face again.

As a child she gave me a lot of worry because she acted like she hated her youngest sister Jessica she often threaten to kill Jessica and told me I couldn’t always be there to protect Jessica so I could never leave the two of them alone. She often told Jessica she was adopted and not really part of the family.

Today they get on really well it only took 20 odd years…………………lol

A few years back sitting here in my lounge-room me and my girls were talking about how children will say they hate their mother or father and I said to Kathy how she would often tell me she hated me but I knew she didn’t mean it and she doesn’t hate me to which she replied “there are times when I really do hate you mother” that hurt it still hurts when I think about it she was no longer a child having a tantrum but a 26 year old mother herself.


As a mother Kathy rocks, she is amazing, she is one to interact with her children each and every day, she plays with her children to the point that for a while they didn’t know how to play alone without mummy that has changed but often they still prefer mummy to play games with them and entertain and amuse them. This of course can be frustrating for Kathy when she wants them to amuse themselves while she cooks tea or does the laundry or other housework.

Kathy-Lee is in a serious long term relationship with Michael with who she has a daughter Summer, she is happy and Michael is a good man, he loves and treats her eldest daughter Sydney-May as his own daughter and Sydney-May loves Michael like a second daddy.

All in all her father and I are super proud of Kathy-Lee she has grown into a wonderful woman a loving and caring mother and daughter who is there for us when we need her, she has been helping me with my grocery shopping on Friday’s do I need her help yes and no do I like her help yes, do I enjoy her company sure do. I also enjoy seeing Summer on the Friday.


National Flag Day was a week ago, my bad


Does anyone know when the Australian National Flag Day is, no well it is  on the 3rd September, it commemorates the day in 1901 on which the Australian National Flag was first flown. On that day the Prime Minister Edmund Barton announced the winners of a competition to design a flag for Australia.

A large flag 5.5 by 11 metres was flown over the dome of the Royal Exhibition Building in Melbourne, it wasn’t till the 28th August 1996 that the Governor-General of Australia, Sir William Dean issued a proclamation that officially established the 3rd of September as Australian National Flag Day, it is not a public holiday so most people do not even know we have a national flag day.

Many people would like to see our flag changed to something different, I am not one of them, I really don’t see the point in changing the flag, some have said there should be a referendum like they had in New Zealand about changing the flag but since New Zealand voted on changing the flag and the vote decided to keep their flag as it is some now say if we had a vote they thing the majority would vote to keep the flag as is as well.

What Happened To Tuesday

Hi all, what happened to Tuesday, stuffed if I know, after taking the boys to school I came home and read some blogs opened up a page to write a post got distracted then had to go to have a CT Scan of my brain, not to make sure it’s there but to see if it showed a reason for all the bloody awful headaches I have been getting. Before the scan I went to the library so I left home at 11am and didn’t get home again till 3.20pm as by the time I was done at the Xray place I had to go get the boys from school.

Blain said he was walking home but he didn’t tell me he was walking home till after he got out of school, so I left him to walk home while I went to get Leo but I didn’t let Leo come home to my place instead I dropped him off at his own house. Blain said he didn’t want Leo here in the afternoons and so I am not bringing him here as that means I end up having to deal with them fighting. I know it is upsetting for Leo when I say he can’t come over after school but I cannot see the point in him coming here if Blain doesn’t want him here they only end up fighting.

Thankfully Blain told me this morning he would be walking home so he took his phone with him this morning, he hands the phone into the office when he gets to school and picks it up in the afternoon as children are not allowed to have mobile phones at school.

This morning mum and I went to see nan as we do each Wednesday and nan was in a happy mood laughing and babbling to someone, when I asked her who was making her laugh she said Ron that is my deceased grandfather, it was nice to see her laughing and sounding so happy usually she just sleeps while we are there.

Mum asked me how I would feel if we changed the day we go see nan from Wednesday to Tuesday, she would like to take Landon and Denni with us when we go out mum has Landon every Monday and Tuesday and he has a habit of getting into mischief so she thought if we take him out with us it might give him something to occupy his mind/time.

Just a thought how many of you know how to use a dictionary, may sound like a silly question but I was just looking up how to spell mischief and occupy and had a flash of memory to a few years back when my youngest daughter said she didn’t understand how to use a dictionary. Yeah she said that I said how hard is it, she said if you don’t know how to spell a word how can you find it in the dictionary. To which I replied well generally speaking you have an idea how to spell the word so you look up how you think it is spelt and find the correct spelling, she couldn’t get it she was in her late teens early 20’s at the time. Now days you have spell checker on your computer but still at times it doesn’t always pick up the word you are trying to spell like mischief it wasn’t coming up with the correct spelling so I used the dictionary the problem was I left the c out and for some reason it just didn’t come up with the right spelling.